Stopping smoking, depression, prayer and grace

Original FB post 08/11/2009 a lil update. Many of you know and have followed my quest to stop smoking (De quit as well). I can say that its has been over two months and getting easier. I know that some of you have followed the process. This process included a strange time for me that I chose not to hide. I had a hard time adjusting to not being on Chantix (meds used to stop smoking) during my withdrawels I battled a wide range of emotions one of the hardest to battle was depression. I allowed it to jump on me and I didnt realize it. I had become seriously down and irratable. I have an awesome life and the chemical imbalance tried to convince me otherwise. For a time it was succesful. I know that through the power of prayer and support I know feel as if I am stabalizing. I thank you all for your kind words, suggestions, concerns and prayers. I have learned that depression sucks. If you try to battle it alone it can and will whoop you. I only hope others who face it have someone who cares enough to point it out to you. I am grateful for De and Cambelle I havent been much fun but they have stood strong. I honestly think this has been a learning process for me. I think there were somethings that I was trying to hold on to. I think there were something I had control over and I could handle. I have been reminded the old adage let go let God. That phrase hasnt survived the years by accident. I promise. Thank you all for taking the journey as well. I leave with never be to stupid or proud to ask for help sometimes you have to hit your knees in submission before you are ready to get up.. Its a journey live it.