Everyone knows me no one knows me

I have all intentions of this becoming a diary of sorts. A chance to share my thoughts I do not have the trust nor the courage to share elsewhere. If you were to ask anyone many would say they are my friend. I am a very "sociable" and popular person. From the outside one would think I have it all together. No one would imagine that I am lonely and such a loner. I think I have distanced myself from other because it doesnt allow them to hurt me. I turst no one and really have no one to talk to so I will share here. Honestly no one to blame but me. Ive pushed others away and  I hope this is a way to clear my head. While I share a lot I believe many would be shocked to know what I dont share. I guess as I begin to trust this blog I will try to share more.